Neale Donald Walsch’s Conversations with God puts it this way: Life works out in the process of Life Itself. All you have to do is trust that it will, and allow it to.
My blood pressure was 126/80 at the doctor’s office on Monday afternoon. I reported that I am doing deep work with Laura. Dr. Mancini asked if my left knee had been bothering me. She said it is the hip flexor pulling at the knee and she has me doing a hip-drop stretch. I am doing on the massage table that we currently have set up in the great room here in our tiny house!
From the “Voice of the Holy Spirit” in my journal writing yesterday:
-
We appreciate your surrender, Dear One, as it truly brings relief along with it. You so skillfully told John it is not surrender to an “outside” God (like Good Old Uncle George in the Good Goats book). It is your own abiding with what is, knowing this too shall pass.
We know you are not sure what you are to see your friend, Laura, about today, but you are willing to look. In fact, you are willing to look at the emptiness of catalysts!
The catalysts don’t cease as much as they cease to trigger you into mindless reactivity. We know your history with storms. Monday evening you were appropriately watchful. You are appropriately watchful at this time about possible conditions related to blood pressure and your heart.
Debra: I am wondering if you can give me clarity if I have sleep apnea?
Would you trust what your guidance tells you over what the tests reveal?
Debra: I know sometimes I can fool myself. Other times, I am able to trust. For example, you have assured me I am done with melanoma. And that no cancer was related to the ovarian mass.
Notice the tendency to future or past. What is your experience in this present moment?
Debra: Like when I was walking and would get lost in thought by planning or remembering and my heart rate would skyrocket!. I began walking as though I was with my three-year-old grand daughter, taking it all in, present with my present experience.
I shared this awareness with Laura. She wondered what this little girl might need from me. My sense is she does not need anything from me but she wants to give me a carefree life experience. I told Laura about the soul collage I did at a retreat on living and dying well I attended in 2014. Here I am:
Notes from Evening with Aaron:
It is about waking up. What does waking up mean?
There is no “other” only myriad faces of the self — all expressions of something — all interacting.
I am not born, I do not die.
One is always awake, but not yet aware of that awakeness.
You don’t want to suppress anything, or act it out…. There is a middle ground. (speaking of rage)
Money is energy. What if everyone who has money said, “I’ll help people learn how to feed themselves.” We are not in control — let it be. You can’t hold on to it. (speaking of the stock market)
Joy is holding the world afloat. Be grateful to yourself for the joy you feel. Offer it out to the world.
Sharing the story of Nathaniel and his friends being robbed of everything: food, clothing. He was lamenting about not being able to do anything but was asked what he would do that morning if he had not been robbed and had food and clothing. He said he would eat breakfast and walk on to his destination. He was told, “Well, even with out breakfast, you best walk on.” They were given food and clothing and blankets and a place to lie down by individuals living in a leprosy camp. Those with so little were so generous.
Hello, Darkness, my old friend. The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls….
Acknowledge the emotion. Offer it good will.
I shared an experience I had as I was riding my bike. I saw a man spraying weeds in the cracks in his driveway. I was very aware of the bias about that. Suddenly the weeds I pull in my Zen walkway asked me if I thought it was kinder to pull them up by the roots than it was to have that man spray the poison on the weeds. “Does that mean that you would be in favor of the gas chamber, but not the electric chair, or the electric chair, but not the guillotine?”
Sitting in meditation a little later in the day I recall awareness of comparing and judging mind. A voice begins to tell me about different chemicals having different properties. Asks me to think about being in a chemistry class or having a chemistry set. One chemical produces one result, and another chemical produces another result. It is not at all that one chemical is bad and another chemical is good. Telling me, “From your perspective, you see one result as being more desirable. To think of your seeing one result as being more desirable as wrong is just more comparing mind and judging.”
Aaron responded to my sharing of this experience with such clarity and kindness. “If you set out the ant trap you are not killing the ant, you are giving the ant the free will choice to eat the poison or not.”
This morning as I sit down for meditation, I read the Word for the Day from Gratefulness.org:
is to ask yourself,
“What if I had never
seen this before?
What if I knew I would
never see it again?”
~ Rachel Carson
Sounds very much like walking in wonder as the one in my soul collage!
You must be logged in to post a comment.